tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-50159792011-04-21T21:02:43.559-07:00malcolm is gayLbnoreply@blogger.comBlogger3971100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1145281743027888892006-04-17T06:46:00.000-07:002006-04-17T06:49:03.043-07:00hello people if you guys are wondering why i'm not updating anymore it's because i've moved over to LiveJournal. this blog's still here for - well, sentimental reasons.click Here for my new page.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1142258768583245742006-03-13T05:55:00.000-08:002006-03-13T06:06:08.596-08:00NumbersCommon tests = bullshitSchool = getting better everydayRockerfellaskank 2 = more than a successholidays = more time to sleepband = exhaustingdota + the band people = OMG HAHAHAHthe whole week - a certain someone = strangely emptyLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1138469004556708802006-01-28T09:14:00.000-08:002006-01-28T09:24:02.776-08:00Latewhen it's late at night it's only natural to experience that unique brand of loneliness.you know. that loneliness. that loneliness you feel when you look out of your window - at the sky/adjacent buildings etc. that brand of loneliness that exists when you feel as if there's noone on this earth but you. alright what the hell am i talking about. i guess loneliness is a good thing. it suggests Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1136054010308151632005-12-31T10:31:00.000-08:002005-12-31T10:33:30.316-08:00the stars are raining downon the 30th of December 2005 i found a little piece of heaven (:a very happy 2006 to all!!Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1135275384761864022005-12-22T10:14:00.000-08:002005-12-22T10:16:33.036-08:00357merry christmas and a happy new year to one and all.goodbye 2005.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1133617456758317492005-12-03T05:38:00.000-08:002005-12-03T05:44:26.510-08:00Tranquility today's band practice reminded me, in the most intimate way, why the thought of leaving has never, ever crossed my mind. the redemptive power of music. all ya'll say 'hell yeah'this, in which there is no I or you,so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1133410372342748672005-11-30T20:08:00.000-08:002005-11-30T20:12:52.346-08:000time for a few photos.From the World of WarcraftMy level 25 Troll Hunter, Keeda.And some big thingy.Saw this one Mr. Brown's blog. It's hilarious.Specially for all you anime fans out there.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1133246600799550772005-11-28T22:03:00.000-08:002005-11-28T22:46:09.286-08:003, 2 , 1.for those who have checked back here this past month, looking for something new to read. i apologize hohoho. that's like. zero people?anyway the reason for my absence is that my dearest PC has just returned from the doctor's. actually it's been back for about a week but i've just been to busy too lazy to blog. and oh yeah. been too busy with WoW. wow!!supp papers are over and it's once Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1130849719088752422005-11-01T04:53:00.000-08:002005-11-01T04:56:58.810-08:00MagicMy heart beatsjust for you and meand the rest of the world simply melts away Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1130157965561526592005-10-24T05:02:00.000-07:002005-11-01T04:55:58.420-08:00Fatewith you, i feel like myself.and we can just ignore everything else (: Stay quiet Stay near Stay close, they can't hear So we can get someLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1129829915508151212005-10-20T10:37:00.000-07:002005-10-20T10:38:35.516-07:00trust in meLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1129552533518815642005-10-17T05:25:00.000-07:002005-10-17T05:46:56.773-07:00Overduealright time for an update i reckon.promos over blah blahgot back my maths and econs results already. Both Os. O level passes but A level fails. so yup, i FAILED 2 subjects already. everything hinges upon the outcome of my Literature now. if i pass it (which i think i will) i'll get a second chance. supplementary papers. but if i happen to fail lit, well. it just shows that i'm really not Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1129208644925496452005-10-13T06:00:00.000-07:002005-10-13T06:05:38.113-07:00Finally here, and now.give me jazz that's slow and sadand i'll give you the best that you'll ever havesomewhere over the rainbow, i hopeLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1128871014709979782005-10-09T08:15:00.000-07:002005-10-09T08:18:07.280-07:00Postasking for the impossibleor impossible to ask forLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1128011095568456432005-09-29T09:17:00.000-07:002005-09-29T09:27:38.513-07:00Time's up.Man was made for joy and woe,And when this we rightly knowThrough the world we safely go.- William Blakei pray to William Blake, Aldous Huxley, Tennessee Williams and Eugene O'Neill for good results. And i pray to MacLaurin and whoever it was who invented the binomial theorem for at least an O for math.hur hur. *diesLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1127577789614459062005-09-24T08:58:00.000-07:002005-09-24T09:03:59.923-07:00i didn't give upi wonder what went wrong this time. i hate myself.and i wouldn't blame you for hating me either.i'm seven shades of screw-up.fuck all.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1127576333767712492005-09-24T08:38:00.000-07:002005-09-24T08:38:53.773-07:00You Are an Emo Rocker!Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.That doesn't mean you don't rock out...You just rock out with meaning.For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.What Kind of Rocker Are You?who would have guessed? lolLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1127315833935112922005-09-21T08:00:00.000-07:002005-09-21T08:20:23.676-07:00This and ThatPromos are 2 days away. First paper, GP. Not exactly worried for that one. Just hope that i'll feel alright on the day itself.i dread economics. =Felt extremely horrible just now. I've never been subject to so much stress before an exam before. Not even the 'O's were this pressurising. Guess it goes to show how painfully unprepared i am. And it feels as if i'm letting my worries and Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1127117970383482862005-09-19T01:17:00.000-07:002005-09-19T01:21:27.310-07:00Moved!yup. http://lb.song-bow.com/ will not be in effect from 21st of September onwards.so this blog will be hosted temporarily under this address. yup.watch this space.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1126371916739074992005-09-10T10:01:00.000-07:002005-09-10T10:10:23.380-07:00It's Okaythere's a thin line between giving up and losing hope.Well, don't go either way.2 weeks. Don't panic.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1125933245636040222005-09-05T07:53:00.000-07:002005-09-05T08:19:29.873-07:00Madam, I am here.Looking for something lostwithout knowing what it is which is lostHiding behind a window,stained by an array of pretty wordsDeprived of vision, deprived of directionsubtle mockery, cursed apprehensionI am the one which is lostGive me a sign.Someone.Anyone.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1125556560306122542005-08-31T23:21:00.000-07:002005-09-01T01:47:19.843-07:00i don't knowneither past nor present holds truth for meand i bruise easilyLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1124971716373213822005-08-25T04:54:00.000-07:002005-08-25T05:10:16.130-07:00Such a delicate boyextremely strange senstion creeping up into my abdominal area.what i associate with, 'feeling lucky'like what the hell. senseless post.All hail Joseph HellerLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1123860563278934182005-08-12T08:25:00.000-07:002005-08-12T08:35:19.413-07:00from withoutsometimes you just forget what you're looking fortimes when you just find yourself stripped barelying on the floorwondering what the hell was it that you gave up everything forperhaps i'd be more attractive if i were a thousand thin slices of raw fleshjust a thought, reallyLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1122801023795283722005-07-31T01:52:00.000-07:002005-08-02T06:01:28.923-07:00Just a thought, really.'what do you want'you ask yourselfi don't knowi don't knowit haunts youwhen you're at homewith only your reflection for companyit talks to youwhen you think that nobody's there to hear youmoment by momentit forgets untilone daywhen the tulips and dandelions are in bloomand you're lying on a bedin a room that doesn't belong to you.the sun will setwelcome the moonthe answer Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1122229342005302242005-07-24T11:17:00.000-07:002005-07-24T11:22:22.010-07:00UnspokenLike how winter misses springthe night is cold and unforgivingand i miss youi miss youbecause you make me completeLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1121956004301658442005-07-21T07:25:00.000-07:002005-07-21T07:49:23.593-07:00Alive but not livingi've been worrying about too many things latelytoo much has been on my mindi want an outlet.no, i just want outLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1121616714267611812005-07-17T09:02:00.000-07:002005-07-17T09:52:47.606-07:00Just around the corner.The one thingthat i believe in the very mostis usLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1121258924029059072005-07-13T05:37:00.000-07:002005-07-13T05:48:44.036-07:00Nevermoresometimes i wish that the sun wouldn't risethat it would remain forever nightis it too much to ask foris it too much to ask forLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1120669070433083652005-07-06T09:48:00.000-07:002005-07-06T10:00:46.533-07:00Untitledsleep childdo not allow them to intrudeupon our sanctuarysleep. sleepfall asleep with a heavy heartweep. weepwhile the rest of the worldtears itself apartsleep, child. sleepcare not about joycare not about sorrowawake, child. awakeopen your eyesand watch the emptiness of tomorrowLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1120411146048293332005-07-03T09:59:00.000-07:002005-07-06T09:59:45.456-07:00Once in a whilethere's always that momentwhen you're standing thereand your heart's racingand all that you want to doin that very momentis to latch onand never let goand to say everythingthat you ever wanted to sayLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1119461000528591422005-06-22T10:13:00.000-07:002005-06-22T10:23:20.533-07:00Empty.You can't keep holding onto the hollowed out conversationsthe unwritten songsand the bittersweet romances.Even though, in all honestyyou deny your very own intuitionClaim your heart's bounty and create rebellious decisionsIgnore the fleeting whispers of your heartSing a forgotten melody Sweep away the broken shardsof a once-glorified tragedyDo not see, what you hope to seefor the mind will Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1119351712646942042005-06-21T03:59:00.000-07:002005-06-21T04:02:11.043-07:00Yellow coloured houses and underwater gardens.kay guys i just did this quiz i saw on Amelia's blog. results are quite freagin' funny. =)What You Really Think Of Your FriendsBrother Paul is your soulmate.You truly love Vern.You consider Ketsu your true friend.You know that Roslyn is always thinking of you.You'll remember Amelia for the rest of your life.You secretly think Vignesh is creative, Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1118941994192241032005-06-16T09:58:00.000-07:002005-06-16T10:13:14.200-07:00Question.Would you believe me,If i told you that i could see the future.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1118863472347739502005-06-15T12:19:00.000-07:002005-06-15T12:53:35.800-07:00Nothing at all.I'm a tad bit irritated.I just wrote a very very dumb AND lame 583 word 'About Me' thing for Friendster and its just too long. -_-I cant even fit the rest of it into the 'Who I Want to Meet' section. But no matter. My efforts shan't be wasted. Enjoy. -------------------------------------------------------------------I am a 17 year-old junior college student.I am fascinated by the Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1118566104751760742005-06-12T01:29:00.000-07:002005-06-12T01:48:25.223-07:00Paradox.I wished thatI could break youshatter all your beliefsprove your every single splinter of knowledge falseincinerate your faithdemolish your trustmelt away all your inhibitationscrush your so-called righteousnessDe-atomize your very soul.Just soso that i could rebuild youRe-creationAnother chemical equationinto something that may seem more perfectmore beautifulmore desirablefor what agendaLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1117738703147868922005-06-02T11:31:00.000-07:002005-06-02T12:03:40.353-07:00Time waits for no manhow about you? I have a confession to make.My life,minus you,wellto put it simplyreally, really sucks.Every single day has been slowly marked by the absence of your smilethe trill of your laughterthe familiar scent of your shower gelstupid quotes recorded down in notebooksas stupid/corny/cheesy as they werei meant every single wordi removed my heart to check it the other Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1117461433338761652005-05-30T06:50:00.000-07:002005-05-30T06:57:13.346-07:00Poetry in motion.My palms turn sweaty. My heart starts pounding. I start breathing heavily.I had been waiting for an eternity.Waiting for a moment that i let slide. What i am. No, what i was.Was what you made me to be.Was what i wanted to be.Just so that we could be.Who am i. What am i.I don't know who the hell i am anymore.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1117039686937297702005-05-25T09:27:00.000-07:002005-05-25T09:48:06.946-07:00The one thing you can't change.I just realized that i'm gonna be keeping myself pretty occupied this holiday.A list of things i'm gonna do this holiday. Somethings i'm really looking forward to, the rest, well, chores. not so.There are a few novels that i currently have at home which are still relatively untouched. High Fidelity by Nick HornbyThe Phantom of the Opera by Gaston LerouxCatch 22 by Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1116787419854045312005-05-22T11:16:00.000-07:002005-05-22T11:48:07.256-07:00The man out of time.A book. A song. A bunch of photographs.Well, they remain.Now they just remind me of the things that happened thousands of miles awaya million years ago.Certainly feels that way.Well they're still there.But really, i threw them all awayThere's no more meaning behind them.Dance in the rain, take a train, or feel no pain?Everything has taken on a dream-like texture. There's no Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1115982846004810462005-05-13T04:12:00.000-07:002005-05-13T04:17:44.946-07:00Lonely bus stop.I try not to.But sometimes, just sometimes.Thinking of you just hurts too much.don't check back anytime soon, there won't be anything new to see.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1115639787216887522005-05-09T04:38:00.000-07:002005-05-09T04:56:27.316-07:00Open doors.Absolute silence.'band number 14.'Just breathe.'band number 14, Catholic Junior College.'Please please please PLEASE'Gold.'Cue montageMarc's retarded faceAmanderr's blank look of astonishmentAngel bursting into tearsScreams of delight erupting Everyone jumping and hopping aroundAhh, ecstacy. X)Will not blog much about the 5th of May, want the memory of it to be as untainted as possibleLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1114922287138539372005-04-30T21:21:00.000-07:002005-04-30T21:38:07.140-07:00If i could sing you another song.Today i woke up the way i always do. Half way between consciousness and dreamland,when my mother opens my room door and acrid sheets of sunlight come pouring onto my bed and myself. "12 o'clock already! still sleep sleep sleep. Hurry up wake up! your grandmother's here."And so i sit up in my bed. Spend a minute thinking about the haunting dream i had the night Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1114500523495261812005-04-25T23:55:00.000-07:002005-04-26T00:28:43.500-07:00Loneliness, my best friend.Feeling horrible now. I've been feeling horrible for the past 2 weeks actually.Well, at least things are getting better already. I guess.I got home from band camp on a cold, bleak, sunday afternoon. I unlocked the gate like i've done so many times before, and then gingerly pushed open the dark wooden door. The sight that greeted me was a familiar one, but somehow it Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1114096987288975152005-04-21T08:20:00.000-07:002005-04-21T08:23:07.290-07:00Note.I learnt something new today.Maybe 'learnt' isn't the right word to useMore like quiet realization.Maybe it's too latePain doesn't go awayit doesn't die offYou just get used to it.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1113664863390173492005-04-16T08:05:00.000-07:002005-04-16T08:21:03.396-07:00And then she was gone.Things come slower now. Not like before.Words take more effort.Every syllable means much more.Have you ever had that moment.When you suddenly saw.Like a shaft of light stabbing through the dust of a room left empty.It's funnyHow you can sometimes see something with such pristine clarityeven though your senses have been dulled.In that moment i suddenly knewthat what i have Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1113063386567931842005-04-09T09:07:00.000-07:002005-04-09T09:16:26.570-07:00Treading water.It seems like we only exist from this moment to the next.In that moment, i'm here.And you're here with me.They come and go, I come and go.Sharing a past does not gaurantee a future. Treading water, stagnancy, immobility.Going nowhere. Move, dammit.Move.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1112460441393776092005-04-02T08:39:00.000-08:002005-04-02T08:47:21.396-08:00Melodic Oooohs and Ahhhhs.I'm right here.Come and get me.Ravage me.Tear me apart.Rip my heart out.Devastate me.Break me.Desert me.Wound me.Stab me.Kill me.I don't need magic to make myself invisible.I am pale. Faded. Bleached.Ghostly, even.I'll tread lightly with a heavy heart.For now.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1112026151479270422005-03-28T07:52:00.000-08:002005-03-29T06:13:55.343-08:00Faith.Well, it's been awhile since i've blogged about what's happening in school, Or anywhere else for that matter. =XYes i'm staying put in CJ. And i have no idea what to expect from school after orientation, when the real stuff begins. SYF's coming up. And I've got alot of work to catch up on.Met my new classmates for the first time today. Know a fair few of them. Got a good feeling about the Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1111493698196248162005-03-22T03:51:00.000-08:002005-03-22T04:19:07.500-08:00And so it is.I could tell you a story. One of everyday - average people. Just living life the way they see fit. Spice it up - Why not toss it with a sudden death?Or maybe season it with sibling rivalry.And how about garnish it with a promise of everlasting love?I could be God. In my own world. I AM God. But what would be the point.It's not the end.I tell myself. But it won't stop the pain from Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1111407050267514842005-03-21T03:52:00.000-08:002005-03-21T04:10:50.276-08:00Pocco meno mosso.no. please. cut. This is too allegretto for me.Rit. Rit.!It's almost april. Wow.These 3 months have passed by, in a blink of an eye.i don't know why, but it feels as if i've been sleeping this whole time. It's been like, one long weird dream. I've been busier than i've ever been in my entire life. Feels good. Grandioso i tell you.It's gonna be a short year. Feels like there's Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1111152691678227852005-03-18T05:09:00.000-08:002005-03-18T05:31:31.686-08:00The same thing all over again.This time, just different. Different.You know what they say.You don't realize how much something means to you,Until you almost lose it.That was a blast from the past, that was. It was something. Something in the air.A first time for everything. :) Musk. Dresses and weird birds.I'm still there with you.I hope I'll always be. Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1110908093586181212005-03-15T09:26:00.000-08:002005-03-15T09:34:53.586-08:00Quote. Unquote.Perhaps i was only there for awhile. I'll fade away, it doesn't really matter anymore.We evaporated. Evaporated.History has a way of repeating itself.Let's see. Let's wait and see.-------------Went to sentosa today! well, yesterday. -_-Was kevin's bday, did shit to him. Won't say nothing here. muahahahaz.dang i'm shagged. And burnt. Nite.A luxury we cannot afford. Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1110738345737257972005-03-13T10:18:00.000-08:002005-03-13T10:25:45.743-08:00Scripted.It goes something like this.I walk you home.I hold your hand. We turn to face each other.I look into your eyes. I tuck away a lock of your hair behind your ear.I tilt my head slowly,And yours...uhuh. yea. right.Up for grabs : My Life OSTLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1110379891321784932005-03-09T06:46:00.000-08:002005-03-09T06:51:31.326-08:00Return to sender.I amaze myself sometimes. I never ever thought i would say, " OI! bus behind got ghost ar?" to a 40 something year-old guy before.I've been spending too much time being unhappy.It feels good to look on the bright side of things after such a long time.Somethings i just can't have. Well, too bad then. Posting results will probably be released on the 23rd this month. I already know Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1109780920156106612005-03-02T08:09:00.000-08:002005-03-02T08:28:40.163-08:00For Clare.Do you remember? My dream. No, not dream, Nightmare.I almost lost you there.After these 2 years, i can't help feeling grateful. I'm grateful for the choices that i made.They brought me to you. And for that,I am thankful.Do you remember?The lazy afternoons, the lemon, butter, and cream. If i had a chance, i would do it all over again.And i wouldn't change a thing.You are irreplacable.No Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1109613498664004122005-02-28T09:44:00.000-08:002005-02-28T09:58:18.676-08:00It's been a long time coming.The wait is finally over!!! Got 'O' level results today.I'm super happy. If you happened to be in the Kuo Chuan Secondary School hall at around 3pm on the 28th of Febuary. You would have probably seen/heard a maniac running around the hall, yelling 'YESSSSSSS!' at the top of his lungs.That maniac's probably me.Lol.I'll let my results speak for themselves. If they Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1109438778010231272005-02-26T09:18:00.000-08:002005-02-26T09:26:18.020-08:00As simple as that.what happened?I expected an obvious answer to an obvious question.I don't feel it anymore.It doesn't hurt that much anymore.Good or bad?You be the judge of that.I was searching for an answer, one that you couldn't give me.And i found it. Where i least expected to find it.It was with me all along.I'll try to be happier. I'll try not to cry.I've shed the last of my tears.I'll try Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1109331360389693972005-02-25T03:32:00.000-08:002005-02-25T03:36:00.393-08:00Hey. It's me.Hey! how have you been?What's wrong? don't you remember me? *chuckles*We used to go to the same school! No?Maybe i got the wrong person.I'm sorry.My mistake.The way things used to be.Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1109004565273578642005-02-21T08:34:00.000-08:002005-02-21T08:49:25.280-08:00Make me blind, mute, deaf.Because it won't make a difference.What am I? I am your freagin 2nd priority.Your god-damned opportunity cost.The pair of socks you never wore.The toy you left under your bed.To rot, to die away. So that you can forget.I am the CD you never listened to.The vegetables you never ate. The book you never read.I am that lousy t-shirt you got for christmas.I am that fucking Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1108834453525410352005-02-19T09:21:00.000-08:002005-02-19T09:34:13.533-08:00brand new doubt.If you were the sun, I didn't feel the heat.If you were my tears, I didn't feel you trickling down my face.I wish i wasn't here now. The past is a much more pleasant place to be. Time rips me apart. Past, present,future.Ever flowing, yet so disconnected. Dreaming will only bring uncertainty. False hopes, fake images of love.Then again, Dreams are for those who sleep.It's about Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1108645593538745082005-02-17T04:37:00.000-08:002005-02-17T07:14:35.973-08:00So help me God, Fred, whoever.Would you stand by me, at the edge civilization,And watch the world crumble right before our eyes. Would you sit beside me at the bottom of the ocean,And forever reside in the cold, dark depths of the sea.Would you climb with me to the tallest peak,And wish away all that we hold dear. I might learn to let go,But i'll never forget.If love be rough with you, be rough Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1108398280823632042005-02-14T08:13:00.000-08:002005-02-14T08:24:40.826-08:001 out of 365.25Nothing much to blog about lately. Band's just really taking it's toll on me. 5 days to concert. :S Honestly i feel super unprepared. My life steered by my past.Valentine's day is over! A big Thank You to everyone who gave out free stuff in school. Now i have enough chocolates to get myself diabetes. Lol. I wish i had 50 hours per day. I need more TIME. The best part of dinner, wasLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1107620149198587522005-02-05T09:06:00.000-08:002005-02-05T08:15:49.196-08:00Leave me behind, just don't look back.
Sometimes i wonder why i feel the way i feel.
Sometimes i wonder why i try so hard.
Sometimes i think that it just won't last,
And it'll all turn into a painful thing of the past.
It just hurts too much sometimes.
I've changed.
I've grown older, colder.
Sometime's i just feel like giving up.
But i'd be letting myself down.
I would never forgive Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1107434174895701892005-02-03T04:19:00.000-08:002005-02-05T08:02:30.180-08:00I'll sing it one last time for you.
Had auditions for Rockerfellaskank today! Think The Fuzz did well. ( yes, my band is called The Fuzz. Don't ask why. ) This may surprise some of ya but i'm singing. LoL.
Really proud of QinXian ( ze drummer ). He pulled off the drum solo perfectly!
5 days to New Year's Eve!
17 days to Con Fuoco 3!
Stress i tell you. Stress.
I still believe it when you Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1107171392258619072005-01-31T03:30:00.000-08:002005-01-31T03:36:32.256-08:00I'm still here.
I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment
That's held in your arms
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want me to be
And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man
You can't take me
And throw me away
And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1107099197028482552005-01-30T07:25:00.000-08:002005-01-30T07:33:17.030-08:00A smile which means so much more.
Went to sentosa today!!! First time in dunno how many years. Yea, i'm super deprived. Saw many CJ ODAC ppl there, All signed up for surf and sweat.
Had some fun in the sun till about 7. I'm so black now. Had subway for dinner, yummy yummy. Muahahahahaz.
School tmr. :(
Make you my queen.
Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1106322505815773692005-01-21T07:27:00.000-08:002005-01-21T08:06:37.200-08:00Eventualities.
You miss a step.
Your heart stops beating for a moment.
Ice seems to replace the blood in your veins.
I don't want it to stop.
I don't want to wake up one day,
and find out that you're gone.
Find out that the magic's gone.
It now seems like you were always there.
Like the sun you shone your light upon me.
I wouldn't survive a day with you gone.
I'm anything but fine.
Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1105719021330145342005-01-14T09:04:00.000-08:002005-01-14T08:10:21.330-08:00Transcending.
She hath(sworn that she will live chaste), and that sparing makes huge waste:
For beauty, starved with her severity,
cuts beauty off from all posterity.
She is too fair, too wise, wisely too fair,
To merit bliss by making me despair.
She hath forsworn to love, and in that vow
Do i live dead, that live to tell it now.
Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1105633468440906222005-01-13T07:59:00.000-08:002005-01-13T08:24:28.440-08:00All for you.
Don't really know what to blog about right now, so i'll just leave you guys with a story i heard from some important figure. Can't remember exactly how it goes, but hope the meaning remains the same. :)
There was an island. The most beautiful island the world ever saw, now lost for all eternity.
This island existed in a time long gone. And the servants of the supreme being chose Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1105540279941438622005-01-12T06:23:00.000-08:002005-01-12T06:31:19.943-08:00Crash into me.
Went for band today! So xiong. Been such a long time since i last played my trumpet. Then was asked to play first. -_-'' Was completely killed. I can't sight-read for shit. Vignesh is sooo pro. Kowtow to him. Lol.
Ended about 7. Waited for 156 till 7.45. reached bishan 8+ Went food junction to eat with jeremy. Made an impulse purchase!
Romeo and Juliet by William Shakespeare!
Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1105450189432034362005-01-11T05:18:00.000-08:002005-01-11T05:29:49.433-08:00Breathe out,
So i can breathe you in.
School's going great! Got great classmates! Feel so lucky.
Stupid quotes taken from school.
Mrs. Kua(i think, the econs lecturer.) : "photo one for meee?"
Mr. Chiam(my chem teacher) : "Do re me, i dunno."
Keane, if you're reading this, i bet your laughing your ass off. Muahahahaz.
Had P.E. yesterday and today, damn xiong la. but quite shiok. lol. Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1105180584571787802005-01-08T02:19:00.000-08:002005-01-08T02:36:24.570-08:00Touch.
It's been a long tiring week. I feel like a completely different person now.
Things always change, you just have to keep looking forward for it.
The year has started of well so far, I feel like i'm the luckiest man on earth.
Okie, cut the crap. I'm in CJC now! yay! :) Long story, how i made it in. Won't talk about it here. Went to CJ today for ODAC orientation.
FUN FUN FUN!
Got Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1104522188407501972004-12-31T11:28:00.000-08:002004-12-31T11:43:08.406-08:00I still do, i still do.
It happened so suddenly.
Like rifle fire crackling within the dense wood.
Birds erupting from the trees.
And all was silent, once again.
Reload.
It's 2005.
What can we salvage from the sinking boat of 2004?
Memories, items which will either bring much joy or sadness within the coming years.
And we weep for those who went down with that ship.
The wicked waves that Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1103913613571678272004-12-24T10:12:00.000-08:002004-12-24T10:40:58.380-08:00The Other Side.
Once again, christmas has arrived.
2 nights ago BFG once again found itself in Charles' house. We were there to celebrate his 17th year on earth. We caught him by surprise :D and had a great time in the process.
In the wee hours of the morning, my mind tends to wander off, and i find myself thinking about the past.
I thought about Charles' birthday celebration last year, Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1103856688739497962004-12-23T18:32:00.000-08:002004-12-24T10:05:02.803-08:00Tell me otherwise.
----------
It's fading fast.
I feel it in my bones.
Soon I will be nothing more than a distant memory,
buried deep within the heart of thee.
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It's christmas eve! but somehow i dont feel the festive cheer anymore. The year has gone by so quickly. Soon it'll be 2005. Feels like 2005 is gonna be the year of reckoning. Many things will change, and we can do nothing Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1103726561937667452004-12-22T06:36:00.000-08:002004-12-22T06:42:41.936-08:00All you can expect from perfection,
Is just one moment of it.
Woke up really early today. 7+. went down to SAJC for band auditions. Went pretty well. The band members there said they would recommend me. Such nice people! :) Well, hopefully i'll be able to make it.
Went down to Peninsula Plaza with Vern after that. Got myself new street soccer shoes! yippee! went to play soccer with vern sean Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1103451098892118042004-12-19T01:59:00.000-08:002004-12-19T02:11:38.893-08:00Can't touch anything.
And nothing can touch me.
Hell of a day yesterday. Spent the day sulking at home till 4+.
Then went for the concert at the Singapore Art Museum. It was FANTASTIC.
Kelvin Tan, Force Vomit ( NOT death metal ) , Shelle Leong from Malaysia and ELECTRICO!
Rawr! It was a acoustic set yesterday. Great stuff. Unforgettable.
Long week ahead. Wish me luck.
Without you, how canLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1103079526313789002004-12-14T18:44:00.000-08:002004-12-15T19:48:53.976-08:00Around you.
Around you,
The wine tastes sweeter.
The colours seem brighter.
The music is so much more beautiful.
My heart feels lighter.
Around you,
The sun stops to scorch.
The icy breeze turns warm.
Words are spun into a true artform.
Around you,
I feel complete.
Like a blind man who could suddenly see.
Around you,
Time stops.
I am transported to another world.
Where the wine is Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1102168468558280652004-12-04T05:48:00.000-08:002004-12-04T05:54:28.556-08:00In the mean time.
Something good has happened.
I will no longer face SERIOUS boredom at home anymore.
Why?
I'll tell you why..
I GOT AN XBOX! WOOHOO!
Ros, Russ and Tim came over last night to test it out.
Played Dead or Alive 3.
And who's the most pro?
MY SISTER.
MY SISTER IS DAMN PRO.
WE ALL GOT TRASHED BY A FREAGIN 5 YEAR OLD GIRL.
Shameful sia. Dunno how she play one. Hiden Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1101985977269446522004-12-02T03:07:00.000-08:002004-12-02T03:26:43.416-08:00Everything.
find me here
speak to me
i want to feel you
i need to hear you
you are the light
that is leading me
to the place where
i find peace again
you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life to my soul
you are my purpose
you are everything
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1101837016329495062004-11-30T09:34:00.000-08:002004-11-30T09:50:16.330-08:00I am who you want me to be.
Hey ya. just got back from Yongsiang's chalet. Had lots of fun!
Went to wild wild wet with arjun, vern and ros on monday. Shiok place! we went there round erm.. cant remember what time, but we played until the closing time at 8pm. Play until damn shiok. Rode all the rides at least 4 times each. Hahaz, got our money's worth.
Went bowling on the 2nd day, tuesday. YSLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1101579510947879232004-11-27T10:07:00.000-08:002004-11-28T06:22:13.173-08:00Ze Silver Lining.
OKAY! here are ze photos.
Me vern and Wanting~ The 234s. LoL.
Me Arjun and Vern! Rawr!~
Me and Rozzee. :)
THE most handsome and dashing young men EVER! Muahahahahaz!!!!
Ze beautiful ladies! ^_^
Gradnight was beautiful, but still cant help thinking that i should have done something.
Unforgetful you.
Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1101475962972057602004-11-26T05:23:00.000-08:002004-11-26T05:32:42.973-08:00The Sweetest Thing.
It was graduation night last night. If i were to use one word to describe it, the word would have to be 'Perfect'.
The food was good, the evening was fun-filled and the post-function party was even better. Everyone looked their best, even though some of them looked so different from what i was normally accustomed to. Took hell lots of photos. Nearly got blinded by all of theLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1100972028318913462004-11-20T09:30:00.000-08:002004-11-20T09:33:48.316-08:00Cordon Bleu.
YES! YES! YES! I'M LOVING IT!
The first day after the O's, and it completely ROCKS!
The day started out BAD. Though i was gonna die of boredom, got stuck at home with my sis. :(
Dad came back round 5. Went to Buto's fer tennis with Vern, Ed and Kent.
Went to prata house fer late dinner.
Den went for Cordon Bleu! MUAHAHAHA!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
I'm high. Goodnight! :)
Time Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1100881673534720042004-11-19T09:21:00.000-08:002004-11-19T08:27:53.536-08:00Just for a while.
OVER! no more! ze O's are OVER. O IS OVER. get it!? HAHAH!.
ok not funny.
twas quite of a letdown actually. kinda thot that the Os wld end with a giant humongous BANG! like caesium plus water. BUT it didn't. felt pretty normal actually. First time being normal felt weird. actually i'm just bledy weird so waddaheck.
went to play soccer fer bout half an hour, then it rained. Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1100166324104633652004-11-11T01:39:00.000-08:002004-11-11T01:45:24.103-08:00Oxidize me.
Had the bio papers yesterday. Funny paper. Really. Very funny. Weird question. Cambridge people think that the pupil dilates when the light source is 0mm away from the eye. Smart sia. Maybe that's why all the Cambridge markers are so bloody COCK EYE!
8 more days.
Lonely, away.
Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1099989834212699992004-11-09T00:40:00.000-08:002004-11-09T00:43:54.213-08:00Raindrops.
Aye! Only half of the O level's left! Can't wait for the end.
Went to have a haircut with vern and arjun today. Arjun looks coool. Vern looks rugged. Lolz. Have no idea how i look.
ARGH!!! ELECTRICO!!! I LIKE!!!!!
Tell me.
Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1099284111077996632004-10-31T21:37:00.000-08:002004-10-31T20:41:51.076-08:00Smile . Smile .
Tomorrow begins the beginning of the end. first paper SS. Bleah. So much to study. Boring. Well, it's all gonna be over soon. 4 years of sec skool has led to this. Fufilling?
Grad ceremony was sad shit. Mr Lim cried. Mr Goh cried. few of the teachers cried. Bet a few students did. I almost did. LoL.
Nothing much to say.
But there's one more thing.........
Mr. Goh said my Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1098607777565402182004-10-24T01:48:00.000-07:002004-10-24T01:49:37.566-07:00Extinguish Thou My Eyes
Extinguish Thou my eyes:I still can see Thee,
deprive my ears of sound:I still can hear Thee,
and without feet I still can come to Thee,
and without voice I still can call to Thee.
Sever my arms from me, I still will hold Thee
with all my heart as with a single hand,
arrest my heart, my brain will keep on beating,
and Should Thy fire at last my brain consume,
the flowing Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1098550810143407392004-10-23T10:54:00.000-07:002004-10-23T10:00:10.143-07:00If i could only tell you.
Went to the SAJC open house today. Nothing interesting. lol~ Got a cool shoe bag.
Took 166 from SAJC to prata house. bloody 50minute bus ride. Can't imagine doing that everyday if i go there. LOl. Had dinner with Vern, arjun, ros, Ys, Mel, Guowei and Jeremy. Went to play pool with the 2 Wongs after that. Fun fun! Seems like we're celebrating even before the Os have Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1098435639534206302004-10-22T01:45:00.000-07:002004-10-22T02:00:39.533-07:00Time spent sad.
The week has been a blast! Went to swim again on Tuesday with the gang.
Celebrated Roslyn's bday on Wednesday. ( Happy birthday! ) Woke up really early on Wed. Around 9. Went to Standered Chatered at Thomson round 10 to cash a cheque for mum. $2000. Lol. Then took 162 to Citibank at somerset. Paid creditcard bills. After paying i had $1280.35 with me in my bag. LOL. Met Vern, Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1098089325462779382004-10-18T01:40:00.000-07:002004-10-18T01:54:14.516-07:00Fall apart, by myself.
OK. A brief description how last night went.
At first, i was all alone with my sister having dinner, watching tv, blah blah blah. And then the door bell rang. It was my brother, and he brought back an uninvited guest.
A kitten.
i went WHAT THE F***.
And my sis went SO CUTE~!!!
It was so bloody small. Few weeks old at the most. It was shivering. It was so weak. It Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1097853081898248992004-10-15T08:02:00.000-07:002004-10-15T08:11:21.896-07:00Some time soon.
Had physics remedial today. Was pretty productive, even though the last part was a real drag. Went swimming afterwards!!! Went with Vern, arjun, ros, yong siang and melissa. Lydia and KH went too, but didnt swim. Had a blast. Played monkey in the pool with the floorball we koped from school. LoL~
Went to S-11 after that for an early dinner. Didn't do much after i came home. Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1097490358964917852004-10-11T02:54:00.000-07:002004-10-11T03:25:58.963-07:00As it comes and goes.
This is it. The last week of school, the last week of secondary school has finally arrived.
4 years have passed me by, in a blink of an eye.
And by the way i had no intention of making that rhyme.
No words can describe the mixed feelings stirring in my heart.
So many memories. I realize i can't remember the specifics, but all that matters are the emotions, the feelings.
Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1096616263243173532004-10-01T00:24:00.000-07:002004-10-01T00:45:28.836-07:00There is no try. Only Do.
I'm a lucky person. I've been thrown with so many pleasant suprises this week. I'm showered with blessings! Got back chemistry papers 1 and 2 yesterday. got 24 out of 40 for Paper 1. and 55 out of 80 for paper 2. Had to get 33 for prac in order to get A2. So..... today got back practical... took the paper. And guess what i saw.
32 out ofLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1096542265162236882004-09-30T04:00:00.000-07:002004-09-30T04:04:25.163-07:00Hai!
Found out out that all my mp3 files have been wiped out by some kind of virus. the files are still there. but got no essence. 0 bytes. lolz. some of my picture files have also been wiped out. Sad. Looks like i've gotta start the collection again. Bleah.
Jap rock kicks american rock's big fat obese ass.
A victim to thought crime.
Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1096281293241333692004-09-27T03:28:00.000-07:002004-09-27T03:34:53.240-07:00Order in Chaos.
Hurray!!! It's back to school~ got back 2 papers today. Pleasantly suprised. Very surprised by English. OK! Got back Amaths Paper 1 to check. got 55 upon 80! YAY!!!! 1 more mark to A2 le. hmf. anyways. very happy with the result. Best i've ever done. Lolz. Mr. Ong read out the paper 2 marks. didnt do so well for that. got 46.5 upon 80. Total 63% B4!!! not the best i can do la. Lbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1096128266547273612004-09-25T08:59:00.000-07:002004-09-25T09:04:26.546-07:00Hit me as hard as you can.
Woohoo! long day yesterday. Skipped chem prac, went to school round 10 to play soccer, went to town after that with ed vern ian nic and hobbits and the 2 whitleys. walked alot. went to ed's to swim and had rockies. slithered alot. LoL. was so freagin shagged. went home bout 11. then went to PS with me bro and dad to watch New Police Story. Good show. Really. Came homeLbnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5015979.post-1095945116443776992004-09-23T06:07:00.000-07:002004-09-23T06:11:56.443-07:00All over again.
Yay! Prelims are over! Hurray! Had amaths P2 today. So much friggin harder than P1. Too bad for me la. chap siao! played soccer with love after the paper. Songzation. went to buto's house after that to slack, eat pizza, and play soccer again. shiok. such an enjoyable day. But a not very enjoyable evening. I CAN'T LISTEN TO MP3 FILES!!! Since i updated my windows media player 9 toLbnoreply@blogger.com